647. 
Physics, metaphysics
(Pardon me, this was accidentally posted under 641.  Here it is anew.)

Drag

Thought of this a few days ago so hope I can recall it accurately.  One can divide the world into the material and the invisible.  In the invisible realm lies the spirit and other dimensions.  The physical is what's around us and time.  When our mind breaks through to the spiritual world, or timeless world, we obtain a new understanding.  This is food for our insides, or soul, or still center.  Or one can say it touches God, or is God given.

As we function in the material world with this new understnading we attempt to move forward and transform the material world around us to conform to this new realization. Since it is matter and energy it can take the new form for just so long and then falls short.  It weighs us down and becomes a drag.  We are literally 'dragged' down. For a time the new physical forms have a sparkle but eventaully they turn into dead weight, or drag as said.

Some drag becomes extinct.  The weight of the rest causes inertia and decay and   friction within us so we are propelled to delve into the new realm or timeless zone for new understanding.  Or, in spiritual terms, we empty ourselves of matter and receive what is from beyond, Once done, a new way of seeing is received and the matter around us starts to glitter and sparkle again for a time.

If we get too caught up in the material we become weighed down. If we just foucs on receiving from the invisible we lose functionality in this world. A back and forth relationship or dance has to exist between the two.

646. 

Spiritual living

Doubts

1.  Life?

Are all our moves in life, no matter how small, of some importance? Are they watched and do they matter?  Do they add up to something?  Do they count?  Do they have meaning? 

Or, is life, life.  It just happens.  Stuff is thrown at you randomly and you just try to keep your balance no matter which way it shifts. Does life have its own life, regardless of what you believe or make of it?  Does life has its own purpose beyond ours?  We have our purpose but we live in life's house with its own purpose. Does it have its own game that we are just pieces in? There is a 'see what happens' element to it even if you believe there is a higher power in charge.

2.  Awareness?

My dad used to say it's good to be aware.  'At least you are aware' he would say.  He often wasn't aware that he was often unaware, but he valued awareness.

His last year in life was very unpleasant. It was not a peaceful passing.  I'm sure he suffered unspoken pain and indignities. He got dismantled.  He blurted out at one point 'I'm being punished.' He was tubed up, medicated up, cut up, and then it all stopped and the end was waited for.  Where was awareness during all this suffering?  Could one maintain such elevation to one's own condition at this point? Wasn't it a luxury now?  Did his suffering come from not being aware enough?  But how aware can we be, any of us?  Wasn't he just one with his suffering, no room for any outside realm to exist within him? He couldn't talk and I couldn't ask but if I could ask I would say 'Are you able to be aware now?'

 

645.  Past

Observations

Just continuing



All people are grabbing this and that: cars, land, houses, and stocks. At least it's better than killing one another. It's better than war. As for me, I am too tired for this. So I just continue.

644.  Past

My family

Could have helped

I have written about realizing how after many years I wasn't there for my mom and dad.  I could have helped them with what I knew.  I could have helped despite themselves

643.  Past

Observations

Things just continue


One waits for culmination, some resolution, but things just continue.