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Blue skies and clouds

8/22/2017

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604.

Spiritual living

Blue skies and clouds

My ex-wife posted some pics on Facebook of clouds and blue skies.  They were dramatic and forceful and well composed. I suggested she do a little book of them and call it 'Skies.'

Later a newsletter I looked at 'linked to the above' commented that the 'best things in life are often free.'  The cliché was expanded upon by stating the blue skies and clouds were vast and this vastness had no cost.

I was swimming one day and doing a backstroke because my right arm was injured   I looked up at the blue sky and clouds in the distance.  They were large and voluminous and their masses were shaded while coronas lit their outlines.  I was lifted from worrisome thoughts towards larger thinking. 

I commented to Joe, another swimmer in the pool, teacher of meditation disguised as an 'alter cocker,' that he should look at the clouds.  He said they were magnificent.  We both stared.  Later we said it was a 'moment.'  To me this meant I was brought out from myself.  For two weeks the skies had these displays  It would rain sometimes in the afternoon, then clear, and the clouds and the blue skies took over.

On another day I recall  being alone swimming on my back looking up seeing an old man in one of the clouds.  Was this some confirmation from the above?  Other shapes took lifelike forms.

When my apartment felt too thick and dark I stepped out and looked at the skies.  The clouds were always perfect, varied and complete.  They asked nothing from you and were just there.  The words 'noble' and 'lifting' applied.  It amazed me they were so available and so free.  They were a sample from the heavens bringing my mind and spirit to a higher plane. They made me feel safe and clear at the same time.  I just had to remember to occasionally  look and let them in.
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Not able to face the day

8/22/2017

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603.  Past

Spiritual

Not able to face the day


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Not able to face the day

A configuration occurred that morning.  Forces were at work that left me paralyzed.  I could simply not move.

Nothing was tragic.  It was just an accumulation of things, from the large scale to the small scale.  One problem led to two more with no end in sight, no solution seen, just more of the same.  Any energy put forth got me nowhere, just like quicksand.  So why even move, or budge.  It was as if my fate was sealed, with no hope.  So truly, why face the day?

Usually something prompted me to get up, whether from just discipline, obligation, or just plain fear.  But that day at that time I could do nothing.  I could not rationalize, muscle, or push through the barrier.  I could do nothing.  I had to give up.

Then, out of nowhere my body became infused with a light which tingled through my body.  There was no theme to it, no explanation or reason for it.  It was just the spark of life itself passing through me.  Blood became oxygenated, oxygen was infused, muscles were revived, bones and ligaments fortified, the mind was sparked and awareness and wonder renewed. There was no agenda, no rhetoric attached to this.  It was just life, and the force behind it, asserting itself into my being.  And so I became able to face the day
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Looking farther

8/22/2017

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602.  Past

Principles

Philosophy

  
Looking farther

If everything in the world seems like random happenings with no intrinsic purpose accept what we consciously attach to them, what hope is there?  The emptiness of it all should make us seek more.  We might feel alone and seek help from and with others.  A random universe is a scary universe.  In such a predicament holding hands is understandable, but is that enough?
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Don't mix

8/22/2017

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601.  Past

Theology

Don’t mix

Seems as if life has its own rules and you have to put your own needs first. It’s “me” first.
It also seems that to seek God, the “other” comes first, that is, what is more than “me.”

Both don’t always mix.
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Stepping stone

8/22/2017

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600.  Past

Leading

Stepping stone

Art is a philosophical search for essence.  It has rules  that can lead to truth.    Sometimes breaking rules reveals the truth.   Gauguin, in one of his last paintings, wrote on the  canvas “who are we, where are we going, where are we from?”  Art can be a stepping stone on the road to finding out.  Artists flirt with being prophets.
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Intervention

8/5/2017

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599.

Spiritual living

Intervention

God, do you really intervene?  Sometimes it seems so.  There is synchronicity that I feel at times.  I also sense I get warnings.  Other times it does seems as if I pay for  mistakes I made.  I'm not saying the scale is equal, because maybe I should have to pay much more.  So maybe some leniency is taking place.

Still, the heaviness seems to outweigh the joy.  It seems in the practical world when you behave not practically, whether aware of you or not, you end up on the short end. It seems as if the rules of the world have to be obeyed whether knowing you or not.  That can be a bitter pill.  If one has sacrificed to know you, it would seem it would open up an easier path in some ways.  Is this just wishful thinking?  Do the rules of the world rule no matter what?  Don't you intervene for those who recognize you even if they made mistakes?  One could say this is preferential treatment but is it really?

It would help if some of the rewards took place in the here and now.  Thinking one can know you and survive in this world intact is not always easy.  Otherwise you remain so distant, so very distant.

I would think it's probably a mysterious  mixture of everything.  It feels as if sometimes we do need a sign, and some support.  Otherwise it's all too dry.  You're too far removed.  Often when I think you have answered some need I have I'm disappointed.  Other times I see how you work with temperance. I know I sound inconclusive.  Maybe to know any more would overwhelm me.  Strengthening myself is an old theme which sometimes I'm weary of.

All this is an appeal of sorts, for what I'm not exactly sure.


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Certain visual moments

8/5/2017

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598.  Past

Leading


Certain visual moments

In this life, part of us knows there’s something more.  Certain visual moments, combining mood and then intangibles, hint toward the beyond.  Certain lights on objects, certain times of the day, certain times of stillness, invite us to look deeper.

These visuals are not necessarily about beauty, although beauty  often is an inherent intangible.


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If one falls.......

8/5/2017

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497.  Past

Principles

Life

If one falls.........
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If one falls....

Today one is on edge all the time.  One slip up with a registration,
tax form or your health could cause everything in your life to tumble.
Yet, despite it all, these domino chips do look perky and alive.
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David 3

8/5/2017

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Parents


David 3, Psalm 27

Though my father and mother abandon me
Adonai will gather me in.

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For some of us this never ends.

Try as you will
there are troubles
with parents
from the start
to the finish. 

Homage to you
and your struggle
all the while
searching for peace
and seeking his presence.

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