685.  Past

Spiritual

The call

Let’s not suppress ourselves.  Let’s reach out and up.  Let’s scream from within and from without.  There is more, there is meaning, there is a maker.  There must be.  The way of life goes one way.  The way of God goes another way.  We have to do both.  Live, but be with God.  It’s hard but it’s the only way.  Reach up, reach out, to Him that made everything. Reach out to others and share this.  Let’s join in this way.  Let it pour forth.  Let it come out of us.  Ah, what a relief. In this there is joy, even for a moment.

684.  Past

Spiritual

Back to God 

I am again brought back to God….that there is just God, and nothing else could be counted on

683.

Spiritual living

The next step

I think some issues of the spirit take prominence when all else is found wanting.   You've tried everything practical, everything social, everything material, and still its not enough.  It's all been exhausted.  Various science of mind paradigms, disciplines, warrior codes just work for a while, then fall apart.  Pleasure fades too fast.  All that's left is the next step because there is no place else to go.

So giving the light a chance to enter, a presence, a God, the God, and relating to it is what's left.  It has to be explored too.  As said, it's the next step.  It will all come short too.  You'll be disappointed eventually.  But still, it's where you have to go.

Sanity, realism, soberness, all just goes so far.  One has to leapfrog to these other levels.  And they too don't stick.  But where else is there to go?  You can't stay still or go backwards.  Somehow you have to settle in to this spiritual realm.

679.

Spiritual


Dream III    

I saw the gates open
and floods of light
poured over our beings.

672.

Spiritual living

Softening



When younger you have a character, definition, a personality, a point of view.
When older you face the opposite of all this......it becomes harder to be so definite.

Faced with all the contradictions of who you were, you ease and mellow and accept.....you must because now you are living between who you were and all that differs from who you were. Since you are not sure where your footing is nor where you appropriately stand, and you are contained between the two within your body, in a sort of no man's land, a softening attitude can calm the spirit and soften the edges and preserve your nerves.

659. 

Spiritual living

Wink

I feel much of what I do
is wrong or off
and when I appeal to God
I receive a wink
instead of a plan.

648.  Past

Spiritual living

No answers

Don't have any answers anymore.  I won’t even burden or stress the maker.  I’ll wait for some confirmation myself.

646. 

Spiritual living

Doubts

1.  Life?

Are all our moves in life, no matter how small, of some importance? Are they watched and do they matter?  Do they add up to something?  Do they count?  Do they have meaning? 

Or, is life, life.  It just happens.  Stuff is thrown at you randomly and you just try to keep your balance no matter which way it shifts. Does life have its own life, regardless of what you believe or make of it?  Does life has its own purpose beyond ours?  We have our purpose but we live in life's house with its own purpose. Does it have its own game that we are just pieces in? There is a 'see what happens' element to it even if you believe there is a higher power in charge.

2.  Awareness?

My dad used to say it's good to be aware.  'At least you are aware' he would say.  He often wasn't aware that he was often unaware, but he valued awareness.

His last year in life was very unpleasant. It was not a peaceful passing.  I'm sure he suffered unspoken pain and indignities. He got dismantled.  He blurted out at one point 'I'm being punished.' He was tubed up, medicated up, cut up, and then it all stopped and the end was waited for.  Where was awareness during all this suffering?  Could one maintain such elevation to one's own condition at this point? Wasn't it a luxury now?  Did his suffering come from not being aware enough?  But how aware can we be, any of us?  Wasn't he just one with his suffering, no room for any outside realm to exist within him? He couldn't talk and I couldn't ask but if I could ask I would say 'Are you able to be aware now?'

 

623.

Spiritual

Despite it all

I might die
from my many
may I say 'sins'
whether consciously
or unconsciously done
but may I lastly say
even if sounding
old fashioned
'God is still great'
as all my thinking
and all my doing
still lead me
to say this.

620.  Past

Spiritual Living

In the background

Should one look to God or to life?  Should one talk to God as a partner as one goes through life?  Doesn’t this replace a real partner?  Can it be dangerous to be too spiritual?  Is the best way, when active in life, to have God in the background and not in the forefront?