(Note: No need to call 911. A number of years ago just hit a tough moment and wrote a prayer about it. Biblical David did that many times. It was where I was at and honest. I also think there is a power to this prayer.)
God, so afraid in this life.
Can't keep track of all the things I fear.
Am I on my own here? Is it all on my shoulders?
If I'm supposed to hold my own, then going to you won’t directly help.
Still, can't face it alone. Too hard.
Maybe there is some angle you can help me with. I don't know.
I think of a zebra killed by a lion. I think of death.
My thoughts stray.
I think of all the things I have to do.
So I go to you. Cry to you.
That's all I know.
I’m very tired of it all.
If things can't change for the better I almost don't want to believe.
All this I feel in my insides.
All the unresolved issues in my life weigh upon me.
It’s hard to go on God.