(From the booklet 'Breakthroughs')
Having artwork complete with a message, coupled with writing that hopefully comes from a deep place, I hope to speak to those who are like me. The schools, institutions, places of worship, never really spoke to us. They used us, tolerated us or ignored us. We went along to get along. We are the ones with the simple message I’m talking about written within us. There was always a presence, another realm, but many of us were turned off because of who was telling us this. I know it’s hard to listen to anything these days, particularly talk of the spirit, particularly if you are over fifty, but please listen just this one last time. I’m not the usual source. I’m an outsider too. We’ve all shared similar pains going through life. In a sense we’re the unspoken victims. Perhaps, in reality, we are the glue that holds the world together. So, with everything I’ve got, I’m reaching out to you. We’ve been alone perhaps, even thought at times we might be crazy, but actually we are the ones whose heads and hearts have been in the right place. We have to know this, in turn be confirmed by others who know this, and in doing so be enabled to keep alive what is special and is meant to survive.
My premise, and the only one available to me, is that I can accomplish something authentic with my art, and incorporate the writing and thinking under normal, even not favorable conditions. Using what I know, even though training and practice was incomplete, something special I believe and hope can emerge out of daily life. Choices, heartache, stresses, aggravation are handled everyday as with everyone. Funds and help remain limited. So good has to come out of what is average.
This effort all fits into the larger concept of my beliefs which is always being tested. If it is true, and all I do fits into it, it should lead to somewhere that is positive.
I am reaching out because I am alone. I’m not in a classroom or another situation where people listen to my inner thoughts. So I am forced to reach out.
Reason for this writing
Your meaning is universal
People are looking for meaning and the reason for suffering. If what
you have found has meaning to you, it might have meaning for others. It
might be universal.
20. Past (05/20/13)
Writing is one way to reach out. A spark of insight is fleeting and if it is really something new, doubt follows. Connecting with others continues that spark and gives it permanence. It confirms we both realized something bigger than ourselves.
Steven B. Nussdorf records his lifelong search to find meaning outside of the normal channels. He uses writing, poetry, and drawing to document this effort.
Write something about yourself. No need to be fancy, just an overview.