You need the world
It's possible you looked forever and found the one realization you were after. You didn’t know it, but it appeared. You have found with time you have to be humble about it. The one big and all consuming realization took over your life and your body and mind began to serve it.
But time entered the equation, or really never left but just became apparent. Time was the world and all its variances and subtleties. You thought you could block out the world and be fixated upon your realization. A transformation took place. What you protected yourself from you began to let in. Each particular experience in the world you once again befriended and these morsels of life filled up your insides and became food for your being. They were no longer the enemy or even a distraction. They became a help.
What had occurred is that your realization was no longer enough by itself. The crystallized form and wrapping it came in was just too one dimensional. Your needs and insides began to dry up. This lacking eventually turned to hurt which forced you out of your own skin.
So again you turned to the world and reopened it. Each sense and piece of worldly wisdom and how to do things and what other people said, both historically and in the now served to awaken little pieces of you. Experience became an ally and began to enrich. The once all encompassing realization was stripped of all its clamor and what remained of it humbly watched from a distance somewhere in the background. What you came to see is that every experience, thought and process of the world pointed in its direction in some way and for a minute you understood a grander design that lifted you above the hurt.