Reasons for this writing
I have to find out if my idea, or an idea, that seems correct, can expand despite advancing age, lack of energy and various personal obstacles that existed and still exist.
I also have to find out if an entire life can lead to a point, this point....whether every decision and realization have a culmination in what I am doing...or is this all just a vanity or an illusion.
These are questions I need answers to. Writing is part of this culmination and if successful hints that everything done had a reason.