Systems and understanding
Two places at once
You can't be in two places at once. This causes trouble in life. Why? To experience anything fully, an idea, a process, a skill, a truth, one has to digest it fully or be digested by it. Your entire configuration has to let in the influence and it has to go through your whole system. It is as if you are entering a tunnel. There is a lot outside the tunnel but when you are in the tunnel that is your whole world until you reach the other side. You can try to be detached or remember what is outside but then you are not fully engaged with the journey of navigating that tunnel. All your senses have to be where you are at to reach the other side.
This causes problems mentally and spiritually and philosophically. It is what causes pain in life. If the tunnel is leading you in the wrong direction you won't know that until you emerge from it. Or it might lead you in a partially correct direction. Once you leave it, and the outside is again in view, you regain a wider perspective. The tunnel had to be gone through to move onwards. To stay where you were wasn't complete. It felt wrong. Your overall perspective was stagnant and slightly off. So you had to move onwards, through the tunnel. More was needed. But while seeking this more, what you had you had to let go of.
So in a sense there were two places. The first is your overall perspective, knowing, understanding which felt incomplete. The pain you experienced was evidence of this. The second is the avenue, the tunnel you journeyed through for a time. You felt vulnerable and lost in it. You were pulled there, involved there, had to walk through it, but it also was painful. Basically you could not be in these two places at once. Both were needed, but both could not exist at once in your mind and spirit. Hence there was separation. And this is part of our dilemma. Seeing this, and accepting it can be helpful. We become less critical of ourselves and more understanding of ourselves as we inch towards what is bigger.