Trust your need for help
When one has all these doubts and uncertainties, because nothing really works, the only true response is one of humility. Thinking you have certain answers is just an illusion. One should be humbled by this. This humility creates the need for help. Following this need for help might lead some to ask “is there a maker” and “can I get help from such an entity?” Since all human solutions have been tried and haven’t succeeded, relief has to come from another source. After eliminating various sources, one comes eventually to the right source, a God, a real God. This can be a long path of questioning, discovering, testing, and feeling. But if there is a solution, it should be consistent, and at the end of the road it should be the same for all of us, or for all of us who look. There are many detours and obstacles and stop off points along the way. Your need for help, free uncompromising help, is your only directive towards the right source.