Thinking and learning
Very early in youth learning was connected with discovery and movement. It was grabbed in a way. Objects were drawn and small planes were built and cars were cut out of magazines. It was as if by learning I was connected with growth as I expanded into the universe.
With school and other pressures learning took a turn. It became synonymous with getting ahead, ambition, ego and success. At the very least you weren't made fun of. The end result, the goal, the grade, took precedence. The early learning still took place, but it was underground, in spurts, secondary, a side thing, decreed not important. Flat learning ruled the day.
Later, the world being faced, truth from lies having to be separated, with everything having a price in one way or another, I learned what I needed to know. Scholarship, the practical, the theoretical, the esoteric, the scientific, all were there to be scrutinized. This was not for their own sake, but rather for the sake of clarification in order to move on. Whether one wrestled with the meaning of life or fixing the faucet or getting rid of the computer virus, learning served the need to get where one had to go. One needed information to answer certain questions. Answering these questions brought completion and resolution and continued movement.
Now a new realm has opened. Learning is for its own sake, with no designs, purpose or destiny attached. The very thought of a goal makes it unpleasant. Ego is not present. Hearing presented information is listened to and no agenda is being served. One has stepped out of one's own way and can learn with no strings. Learning in this way has simply become receiving what life brings to your table and being fed while making no demands.