injury cuts short pleasure

Final flourishing shortened

7/24/2014

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Final flourishing shortened

A few years ago I had a hernia and to me it marked the beginning of the end. I have learned to live with it, make the best with it and function with it. Aside from having a tooth pulled years ago, this seemed like the first distortion of my body.

These next ten years would seem to be the last years that I would be able to celebrate my body, work on it, delight in it, and take pride in it. Given some spare time thrown its way I could even become proud of it and enjoy it. I was never that sensual when younger. Now I could have finally filled out and felt virile, or at least taste what it’s like to do so. At the very least if I wanted to I could, it was an option.

The hernia is a bulge below my abdomen and it mars by body. All that's mentioned above becomes compromised. My final flourishing was cut short.

5 Comments

Tom

7/26/2014 09:31:44 am

Hi Steve,

Those were interesting comments and I would rather respond offline but if you decide you want to share...it would be okay with me.

True story; recently a very health conscious 80 year old, friend of mine had to undergo emergency surgery. He told me that he had a hernia for about 12 years. One day it caught up with him. At that point he had no options and HAD to have open surgery to deal with the pain and complications. Until the emergency he used a truss and was performing exercises...I guess nature eventually has to follow course.

It is almost three months since my laparoscopic procedure. I am functioning normally again.

Tom

steven

7/26/2014 09:32:13 am

Today at 2:41 PM

Hey tom,

the writing was written about 3 years ago.

I am aware of the dangers and what happened to your friend as an example. I also knew someone who went 10 years and then needed emergency surgery at around 70. So it is a risk, perhaps particularly as you get older. I do make an effort to be careful about jerky motions etc but sometimes one is taken by surprise and that is when an accident can happen. If so then one has no choice and is at the mercy of the emergency ward.

I'm glad its going okay for you. That is what is done well, they get you on your feet. I think you know my reservations though. If its a mesh sewed in, bacteria invades eventually and the mesh can't be removed without removing part of the intestine. If its steel thread used to sew it together, you have steel in your body that can cut and tear weakened intestines. If the cause of the hernia is not solved, in my case allergies that cause sneezing, there's a chance it will come back. The procedure an Indian doctor has used seems successful and doesn't use meshes or steel sutures and that is appealing. For now I function with it but reassess periodically.

Do appreciate your input and concern and feedback.

Steve

(I might share this...who knows if someone out there is going through same thing?)

8/7/2014 07:14:18 pm

Aug 7 at 11:25 AM

Hey Steve, Just browsed your writings.

Did you have any treatment for your hernia? I have a friend who has
surgery and is having a tough time recovering. Much discomfort and some
pain. He is not trying some laser treatments to aid internal healing.
He's also heard from others that recovery is a long process and maybe
never fully recover. Crap.

steven

8/7/2014 07:15:32 pm

Aug 7 at 12:38 PM

very very upsetting. I went thru hell figuring out what to do or not to do. they con you. there's one indian dr that does operation that doesn't use a mesh and he's been successful, altho a few say it might pop out afterwards if under similar strain.

I keep my weight down and watch it all the time. and manage my eating so I don't rampage all day.

I feel for you and your friend. now he's got to be on meds and the system has him . use your discretion. read the site, intro and all and familiarize yourself with it and maybe feed him in small doses what u learn. to much and he might get depressed even suicidal so lets just ease it along.

8/7/2014 07:20:32 pm

Aug 7 at 12:24 PM

Thanks for the offer Steve. Yeah, I will think about sending home this info. Don't want to depress him further.
He's a friend from my neighborhood in NY who lives down the street from me now. Went to Junior HS and HS and Hebrew school with his younger brother.

He's really pissed off at the complications he is having. Was sold on this being a simple no problem surgery.
Once again BS coming from US medical industry. Really sickening.

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Steven B. Nussdorf records his lifelong search to find meaning outside of the normal channels. He uses writing, poetry, and drawing to document this effort.

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