Compassion for self
If you do one thing you can’t be doing something else. There are just
so many things you can do. As one gets older there are more things you
haven’t done than you have. You see this and feel the imbalance. You have
only partially lived life and you have to bear the results of this.
This morning I saw before me my activities, some of my struggles and what I
have tried to do. I saw where my need to follow an idea myopically to a
conclusion has led. I saw where my need to order everything up and down
the scale has led. And with seeing all this and more, I saw myself for a
second as the maker sees me. All my ideas and efforts are not fully
realized, and yet it is what I have done with myself and my life. And so,
as a good listener and friend, I viewed my life, or as much as I could absorb,
without judgment and with acceptance and a hand on my shoulder showing care and
understanding. There is more to me than just my life.