I was talking and joking at a Starbucks with two young men, who were focusing on a woman's "derriere.” Every attractive woman who walked by they chanted "Steve, Steve, Steve." A couple of the women who I slightly knew passed by and I said “hi” but nothing more. They said one woman looked me up and down and I missed it. They claimed another smiled at me. Another had an exotic dog and I said I had three of them. Then I said I was just kidding and she smiled. The boys said I had no follow through. I said sometimes I do, but not now. It took too much energy.
One of the boys said "see how many opportunities you missed and probably have missed." Suddenly I became thoughtful and agreed I had missed many in my life. These opportunities to live, be social and lively had just whizzed by me. I half jokingly added “if you guys had been around during my life things might have been different.”
It is always sad when we see that life has passed us by, in whatever form, and we did not live it fully enough.
Writing 8. Better to Have Existed
Your drawing of a woman's form is exquisite! Did you draw her from your mannequin, imagination, a life model, or a combination of all three?
And yes, it's important to appreciate being alive and healthy. Not so sure I would like to be alive if I weren't healthy...
This drawing was done from life from a mannequin and is pretty much what I saw. Wrestling with different ways to work, i.e. drawing as the light hits your retina as this was done or having a personal vocabulary and incorporating nature and not being dependent on it, or finally using what knowledge is in the head instead of nature are all different ways I've wrestled with.