Everything I do lately it’s as if I’m doing it for the first time. Emptying out a closet, sorting out old blankets, or my clothes, facing new obstacles in the art, going through my mom’s books, tons of new computer arenas never before stepped in, all have to be faced as a new challenge. Is part of this facing what was never faced earlier in life? This can be good, because it is expanding. On the other hand, what ever happened to routine, something being second
nature with a smooth flow. While doing something routine, your mind is free to contemplate other things. But now everything is for the first time, with the anticipation building, adrenaline pumping, and procrastination revisited.
Writing 23, First Time
Back from a trip North to visit friends and family. Your experience with Sandy was so sad. I was on the Jersey Shore and shocked by the devastation. My niece lost her entire house and most contents, all is so deeply disturbing. Those little things of Grandma's brought the most grief. Letting go is hard, I am glad you had some spiritual help. I think you are very brave to dig deep and share your inner thoughts and feelings.
I really identified with "First Time" too.
I always thought as I grew older things would get more routine and relaxed, but it seems to be the opposite.
Melinda. Nice you got away but not good what you saw. Disturbing is a good word. Ironic here I am in Florida where stuff like that's supposed to happen and three foot lockers kept up north on the big rock of Manhattan got damaged. Would be funny if it wasn't me.
Thanks for support on my digging, and the spiritual realm kicks in cause where is left to go?
Just has to be authentic and not regurgitated dogma. You're so right about routine and relaxed. Somebody hid them.