38.



Hope    

In the quiet
of the night
and money concerns
pressuring my soul
and health concerns
doing the same
I then hear
“Steve I love you”
and then I know
there is hope.

17.



Early morning hours   

In the early morning hours I decided to let in the voice of the above.  I think it was a decison to do so, not something that happened to me.  What did I have to lose?  What I seem to recall is the following;  "Steve, I'll fill you up with joy.  All your doubts and worries will be flooded by this current of joy.  The flow of joy will encompass them.  They won't occur because they'll be overrun by this goodness."

I also recall angel like swirls of light bouncing in and around and through me.

I thought after, "did I do this to myself? Was this just wishful thinking?  Could I be hurting myself with such illusions?"

But what happened happened.  It is part of my landscape now, part of me, and I'll go with it, even if disappointed later.

4.  Past

Praise and Appreciation


Within me

Feeling the brightness of you within me
helps me face the struggle.

1.  Past


Before

Before my eyes opened in the morning
before the onslaught of doubt filled my heart
I was filled with the warm words
“Steve, I love you.”