Recently a lot complicated things have been on my mind. My father's been in rehab and decisions around that have to be made. Also decisions about the future, about myself, on top of just dealing with the emotions involved. What I've noticed is that I haven't heard from the above. When feeling pain I appeal but everything is in such a swirl I hear nothing back. Or, a couple of times when bitter and snide, I present totally negative scenarios and I seem to hear the small silent voice, but I think it's laughing at me. I learned a long time ago God has a sense of humor.
Yesterday, after reaching a certain pressure point, a couple of things eased up and an aperture of light appeared towards the next step. Also at some other time my perspective enlarged to include the worse and best of possibilities. This also served to release tension.
So with a lighter load I lay in bed that night, closed my eyes and saw what seemed the light of God's eye (sometimes called the third eye). I then heard the calm and guiding and soothing voice of God review with me the status of some of the variables I faced. My breath deepened and I calmed down.
Apparently, when everything is in overload and overdrive God can't reach us, even if we need it. When things break down into smaller bites and the situation is more manageable God will make his presence felt. He picks the point where he can make a difference.