Talking to god
All the people I’ve known who claim to talk to God are off center. Joe, a neighbor I had spoken to and influenced, changed from a Jewish gay atheist to accepting the idea of a maker, adopted Christianity and then went off the wall in believing himself to be the second Christ, who spoke to God directly. Wow. Esther, another Jewish neighbor, was a healer, psychic, believed in angels, and spoke to both. Elaine, another neighbor, confirmed to me that she spoke to God directly. Perhaps having certain mental deficiencies opens up gaps for this to happen. The person remains touched by the experience of the maker but is off in their life. Many others claim to talk to God. I don’t think I’ve met a healthy one yet. There is more to this than I can comprehend.
Does this mean that those that speak to God are off the wall? Does this mean God can’t be involved in our daily activities, that to get too close is not good? Most Jewish people I grew up with didn’t include intimacy with the maker in their daily life. They might have observed rituals, or have been Jewish culturally, but a passion for God himself was not to be found. Could this be just a falling away until fate awakened them? Or was this a healthy distance that was established through time? I read after the prophet Zachariah that for four hundred years the Jewish people experienced God to be silent.
When I speak to God am I just off, inexperienced? Is just the knowledge that he exists enough to suffice? I hope not. Some link seems needed. Something more has to be established. It doesn't seem enough to just know. One has to feel something too, even words.