On ending it all
I receive a daily online health newsletter that includes research from various people who have spent many years delving into one or another aspect of health. The author of the newsletter explains their research in layman terms and the comments on them often are the best part. One comes away with various unhomogenized perspectives.
Recently one issue dealt with the rise of suicides in America. Since 1999 it has increased in the USA by 25%. Various explanations were given and all had some merit. However, it was a reader's comment that struck a cord within me and for others too. The writer, sounding in his 50's, said, to paraphrase, that he felt tremendous pain (emotional) his entire life. It never left him. Opting out was always an available alternative and back up plan. It actually gave him comfort to know there was a way out. In the meantime he hoped to work his way out of his 'synthetic' life and maybe try to live closer to the land and grow organic vegetables. This was his plan.
His openness sounded real and somehow seemed more sincere than any mind/body technique or motivational talk offered by various thinkers and writers. Perhaps the pain he referred to is our true foundation. Beneath all the noise, clutter and clamor is the uneasy feeling that we are running from something. This is at least true for some of us. On the deepest level underneath it all this might describe a universal condition.
'Taking leave' is of course one way to protest or to escape a painful life or condition. Then there is the voice of Hashem, or Eliohai, or God. Above all the busyness and activity and aggravation and unsolvable situations one might hear between it all “It's okay. I'm here. Go forward with your general plan. It makes sense. Don't look back. You're doing okay. I'm with you. Inch your way through.”
If suicide appears as one solution, hearing the voice from above might be the other.