Delayed gratification/grabbing life
An appealing woman, both lively and cheerful, was at the pool. At times I still looked youngish so I did not hold back. Various thoughts occurred to me. I always thought all would work out well. I also thought everything happened as a prelude to a “realization” or a “becoming.” I also believed that delayed gratification would be worth it. With age and not all things coming to fruition when I expected them to, I had some bitterness. One could not delay gratification anymore. Time was running out. Should age reconcile what one has lost and missed out on, a cooling of the embers so to speak, or should one, with whatever energy and vitality one had left, grab whatever out of life that is offered? Should I have reached out to the lady or just remained in my thoughts? No easy answer.