Is God contradictory?
I was sitting in the chair, kind of dazed by the turn of events. Dad, 98, in rehab for pins put in his hip, contracted pneumonia and now needs a heavy dose of antibiotics. Looking out the cloudy window, I briefly felt the peace of God's light which overrides everything.
Then I thought of the times I wanted specific things or of specific requests. What if I wanted this or that for dad? What if I wanted this project or this thing or this involvement to work out? This was part of the world. No joke. Things had to be found out, worked through and resolved. However, it was definitely a different energy then I felt when feeling God's light and peace.
I recall Marcion around 2000 years ago who claimed the Torah's God was a lesser God then the God of the New Testament. In a sense the former was a God of things. Much of the negative attitude towards the Jews came from his thinking. He himself was not necessarily anti-Jewish from what I've read. He just wanted to make a distinction. Later his name became used by others for anti-Jewish sentiment.
Then I thought all the mystery and local religions always had lesser Gods to handle lesser things, such as the weather or the crops or love. Deep down inside us still was the knowledge of an overall God.
Boiling it down to what one observes as I'm drawn to do, isn't this just the point of it all. We want things. I don't want my father to go, we appeal and ask for what we want, we struggle forcing matter and energy to heed our will, all along while the peace of God remains steady and throughout. Lesser needs kind of have a God of their own all the while the overall God harmonizes the whole thing.