Considering all things (from booklet 'Breakthroughs')
If you found a home, a home for your spirit , and it is real and makes sense, how to live afterwards is not what you’d expect. One would normally think being principled and righteous would be the way to go, but not so. Previously you thought the world was a mess and you had to find something that made sense and change it. But now that you found what makes sense and a home the world must not be that bad, because it led you there. Ah, what a change in perspective. Maybe everything is the way it is for a reason and serves, in a roundabout way, some purpose.
How about the mundane, say Grade B movies. When left on late at night even they serve a purpose, possibly killing the neighbors’ noise and providing background chatter that substitutes for a scattered family. What about those brutal boxing matches. Well, its not the worse way to siphon off the anger from being put down at work that day instead of telling the boss off and getting laid off. And what about those miserable commercials that waste your life. Well, they’re a good reminder to get a chore done during the break and get on with your life. And maybe just maybe you’re not above it all, cool, detached, from a higher plane checking out the riffraff culture down here. Maybe part of you is, but maybe part of you isn’t. Perhaps a baby’s cry for help is closer to where you really live, dependent, needy and scared. Maybe you’re not so in control, not such a master of your own fate, maybe everything you did was just covering up that you were a victim raised by victims. Hey, all this is not so bad, just see it and don’t run from it.
You wanted to know the truth, didn’t you? That is to see who you really are, to see what the world really is, and not attempt to change it or yourself through trying or effort. That just never really worked, did it? The only opening left is to consider and see all things and ever so slightly in small imperceptible ways be drawn back to the home that it took so long to find. This alone is the cure.