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Stings still hurt

7/15/2014

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181.  Past

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Stings still hurt

One would think experience, perspective and smoother edges would shield one from being affected by slights and insults.  Not true.  If you have to work as an older person in these times you understand what I mean.  You might deal with 100 people that are decent enough, but if two are rude and insulting it can really sting.  Just ask an older security guard at a gatehouse, or an older salesperson at Macy’s.  Unless they have dulled themselves, the slights hurt more than ever.  Your patience is thinner, your health is vulnerable, and being insulted and/or demeaned is hard to take.  Your dignity is violated.  One can try to stay calm, to breathe deeply, protect oneself with a light or meditation or detach yourself from the experience, but no matter what you do, it still hurts.  Old wounds don’t heal so easily.  A few times when treated so, I was up all night.  I knew better. I knew all the right things to tell myself and to do, but chamomile tea and soft candle lights still were no match.  The sting just had to heal with time. 




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Peggy
7/16/2014 01:03:35 am

Through the years I have been told -more than once -that I am too sensitive and I need a thicker skin. I decided that I did not want a thicker skin because, while a thicker skin would lessen the hurt and pain, it would also keep me from really living my life and feeling the joy.
I agree that some hurt and pain heals with time, but some wounds are too deep to heal easily, and we bury them deep within so we don't have to feel the pain. I wonder if old wounds ever heal ,or if they just fester and come out to haunt our lives in different ways. Then we wonder why we act certain ways; what makes us feel certain ways, and why we sometimes do things that seem so "out of character" for us.

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Lisa
7/16/2014 06:30:06 am

Yes, Peggy, I firmly believe in what has already been studied. Our experiences and how we deal with them is our future into knowing how we will react with adversity. Being 47yrs old in this economy and struggling to find a career that will pay the bills and not kill my spirit is a challenge. My previous Manager was 24yrs old; can you imagine the adversity I faced each day at work? My last day was May9th; I was let go for being late three times in one month; and within 8yrs, I have never had an issue with tardiness. Of course, I have been told to appeal it and show hardship and just maybe the company will be loyal and work with me. We will see. I am just trying to find another place that respects me and my talents; not that I am too old to understand the jokes and laziness that the younger generation seem to have. I feel beaten up and demoralized for sure. Do I appeal, fight and win; then find a better job and move on; or do I not fight and just let it slide and move on elsewhere? I am in this position. We will see.

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steven
7/16/2014 09:49:10 pm

Lisa,
u wrote to Peggy but good to read your words. It was always a real plus to feel your presence in the store. You are in a difficult position and that is acknowledged here. I can conjure up some advice but maybe just letting your words stand for themselves amidst some honored silence and peace is good for this moment. and maybe the right actions will settle in if we give it space.
steve

steven
7/16/2014 10:42:01 am

Peggy
at some point and some time I know I had the same choice too and made the same decision. Thanks though for formalizing the moment and recognition and bringing it to my awareness. It was a life forming pact of sorts, not always easy to live with.
When I state the case it feels complete. When I offer solutions, sometimes there is an incomplete feeling, as if it wasn't on the mark or I didn't delve enough. Thanks for opening up the gates with follow up realizations albeit consequences. I think you are right, the truth being these wounds are with us forever and build at times a strange person that our original selves has troubling recognizing which is also painful. Thanks for lifting the bar of insight.

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