God, do you really intervene? Sometimes it seems so. There is synchronicity that I feel at times. I also sense I get warnings. Other times it does seems as if I pay for mistakes I made. I'm not saying the scale is equal, because maybe I should have to pay much more. So maybe some leniency is taking place.
Still, the heaviness seems to outweigh the joy. It seems in the practical world when you behave not practically, whether aware of you or not, you end up on the short end. It seems as if the rules of the world have to be obeyed whether knowing you or not. That can be a bitter pill. If one has sacrificed to know you, it would seem it would open up an easier path in some ways. Is this just wishful thinking? Do the rules of the world rule no matter what? Don't you intervene for those who recognize you even if they made mistakes? One could say this is preferential treatment but is it really?
It would help if some of the rewards took place in the here and now. Thinking one can know you and survive in this world intact is not always easy. Otherwise you remain so distant, so very distant.
I would think it's probably a mysterious mixture of everything. It feels as if sometimes we do need a sign, and some support. Otherwise it's all too dry. You're too far removed. Often when I think you have answered some need I have I'm disappointed. Other times I see how you work with temperance. I know I sound inconclusive. Maybe to know any more would overwhelm me. Strengthening myself is an old theme which sometimes I'm weary of.
All this is an appeal of sorts, for what I'm not exactly sure.